It wasn't her fault. Everything dug up old wounds for Luke, because right now, that was what his life felt like. The only way to avoid it had been to do as he'd done--cut himself off both physically and emotionally from that life. The choice, the process, of letting her in was changing all that, but it did not come without its own cost. One could not hurt that which did not feel, after all.
Luke was starting to feel quite a bit.
And what he felt now was difficult to sit still for, difficult to just listen to as Rey told him just what his nephew had become. What he'd tried. There was a lot to parse here, a lot to deal with, and he had no idea where to begin with it all.
But you started this, he reminded himself, and it's your job to fix it, if you can.
This was a relatively new thought, or at least a new manifestation of this line of thinking. And it hurt. It all hurt, and he wanted to walk away from it, but to do so now would be to leave that wound open again.
"He offered to train you," he says softly, gaze troubled. "He told you you had power, that together you could change the galaxy, that he was the only one who could help you fulfill your destiny." He was projecting, of course. But it was also a troubling educated guess. "My father told me the same thing. He's trying to be Darth Vader, perhaps." And he didn't know what that meant. Which part of Anakin was Ben emulating? Which would win, in the end? "Wait a moment. How did he force you to use it? What do you mean?"
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Luke was starting to feel quite a bit.
And what he felt now was difficult to sit still for, difficult to just listen to as Rey told him just what his nephew had become. What he'd tried. There was a lot to parse here, a lot to deal with, and he had no idea where to begin with it all.
But you started this, he reminded himself, and it's your job to fix it, if you can.
This was a relatively new thought, or at least a new manifestation of this line of thinking. And it hurt. It all hurt, and he wanted to walk away from it, but to do so now would be to leave that wound open again.
"He offered to train you," he says softly, gaze troubled. "He told you you had power, that together you could change the galaxy, that he was the only one who could help you fulfill your destiny." He was projecting, of course. But it was also a troubling educated guess. "My father told me the same thing. He's trying to be Darth Vader, perhaps." And he didn't know what that meant. Which part of Anakin was Ben emulating? Which would win, in the end? "Wait a moment. How did he force you to use it? What do you mean?"